THE HOLE

THE HOLE . . . . . .

Friday 11/04/11 the first night my son spent at the jail they stuck him in the hole to prevent him from killing himself.


The hole is about 10x10 and there's a mattress with a blanket and a toilet that doesn't work and no toilet paper. Wolfe asked for toilet paper but they just ignored him. The threw him in their naked and that's how he stayed for 24 hours. When he got out he told the guard that if that's how they keep people from killing themselves it's not going to work. And the guard said that that's how they do it there.

Monday, November 14, 2011

fight with my son

Had a fight with my son.. which is not something you want to do. Maybe it was me but I was feeling guilty for not being able to do anything to get him out. And I think all he wanted was someone to listen. He said I made him feel stupid and like a 5 yo. And just this morning one of the guards put his head in the door and pointed to my son's bed and then walked out. Did it twice and Wolfe had no idea what he wanted.. finally realize he wanted my son to make his bed. We don't even make ours at home. He said they treated him like a 5 yo. Things got a little heated and he told me I need to shut up and listen instead of telling him to be strong. He fucking knows that. so.. we spoke again later and I shut up and now I know that he just wants someone to listen to him. Noone there understands what he's going thru. The phone call is his time to be away from the crowd and have a connection with home. Sometimes we just sit on the phone not talking for minutes.. he needs that time away from it and I sometimes drive him crazy.. so he doesn't get that 15 minutes.

I fired my first prison consultant because he said he would able to get my son in a prison camp. But now I know he can't because of what Wolfe went in for. They won't let sex offenders in a camp. And it was hard to contact him, he never answered his phone.. So I canceled the check. Hopefully I got it in time or I'll have to fight with him over it. But I hired another. But this new guy Larry tells me that I don't really need him. The prison system will do what they do and put him somewhere.. He's there if I have questions and he knows where to go to find out about Wolfe's transfer. Right now I'm on my own and have a busy business so having that extra person who knows the system is worth it for me. Finding out shit is very time consuming and sometimes you hit a deadend and have to restart. So, I'm cool with that.
As soon as I have some time I'll put together links and a website with all the stuff I've learned from this experience.

I've been wanting to talk about sentencing day and my son's first day at jail in the hole. I have a wicked headache tonight but if I put it off then I'm not sure when I'll get to it. So.. Let's get at it.

Nov. 4th 2011, Friday
There's something just not right about driving your son to court when he might go to jail. We thought he'd get probation. We had all the forensics, the proof that he never even saw the 2 cp in his list of 2331 music videos , a few adult porn, but he's a young man. Then the 7 or so cps that were partially downloaded and then deleted. So I was optimistic. And our attorney, David Seltzer. . who I am still glad I hired, (it would have been so much worse without him), had his defense and very well done, as the judge also noted. Then Carlos Perez, the prosecutor started his weird rambling and gestures . Pulling things out of the confession that the ICE agents said.. not my son. My son only agreed to the words the agents said because he just wanted them to leave him alone. So it was. . He admitted to using certain search words that were used just for that kind of porn. yet it was the officer who read off a list of what they use and my son just agreed. But Carlos made like the words came out of my sons mouth. The officers said. 'you jerk off to them' and my son said yeah. . and Carlos made like my son actually said the words 'jerk off to them' which he didn't. This is how they get you in a confession. I've read their manual. I have it and when I have time I'm putting it on the internet as well.

Anyway.. I'm getting a bit tired so I'm not going to finish this tonite. But when Carlos was done the judge said 36months and my daughter and I looked at each other like.. WTF? and they never let me even give him a hug they just took him away. I think David was a shocked as well. As was our forensics guy who was there and we all figured on no jail time.  . I'm still stunned over it all.

Expecting a call from my son tonite. I spend a fortune on phone calls, first 2 days I spend $400.. we've since cut back


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